Guest Blogger: My boyfriend wants me to get fake boobs

04/15/2014 2 comments

Part I: FitRanX Intern Jackie’s Body Image Blog

This week, I’m asking the question: can my boyfriend morally ask me to get fake boobs?

First I Must Ask…. Do I Even Like this Idea, Myself?

The answer: maybe/kind of/someday/only in dreams/maybe in the future/too mad at my boyfriend to really answer this question.

To spare you from the cornucopia of my internal conflicts on this issue, I have created a board game map of how this goes down, should I dive right into this can of worms.


For your viewing pleasure.

Now, for the sake of this post, and my sanity, let’s suppose I will entertain the idea of putting two slugs in my body.

First of all, some none-too-exhibitionist background: I do actually have breasts, currently. They are pictured here to the left.


They are breasts that I’ve had for quite a while… and ones that I liked, I thought!!

Some of my internal gnawing on this includes: Won’t both he and I be devastated if I agree to have surgery and then he isn’t satisfied with the results, anyway?


Please also see pictured differences in opinion between he and I on any “improvements” to be made.

Or will it be a let-down no matter what they look like, when this man realizes he has already had the ultimate rule and role over my body, to actually customize what it looks like?

I’m not an idiot, I promise

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SABOTAGE!!! Weeks 11 & 12



Sorry to say, this is not an article about the beastie boys.

This is about the one thing we have all done to ourselves at least once while on a “diet.”

Yes…. Sabotage.


It doesn’t matter how, when, where, or who does it – but I can guarantee you that it will happen.

It happens to the best of us, including me and Sergeant Rians!

I was doing so well on my transformation, aka “diet.”

Key word here is WAS.


Then it happened, My Birthday.

Now, I know you are thinking, “A piece of birthday cake is not that bad.”

I would normally agree with you but, my husband went all-out for my birthday (he usually does!!).

Here’s how the sabotage started…..


Friday morning I was told to be ready and in the car by “0800.”

Any of you that have kids knows that it’s nearly impossible to be on-time, ever.

We have 3 kids, but we were pulling out of the driveway at 7:58 a.m. (simply because I am amazingly punctual 🙂 )

I had no idea where we were going.

Long story short….we headed out to Catalina for the entire weekend.

We are on the boat heading out to Catalina, and I was literally calculating how many meals we would have to be eating out.

Holy crap, I was about to commit Diet Suicide!

Here I was supposed to be celebrating my 36th birthday, and all I could think about was how hard it was going to be to get back on track Monday.

This is where the sabotage comes in to play.

I could have ordered the grilled chicken breast with veggies instead of the fish & chips.


Or…. instead of ice cream in a waffle cone – I could have had frozen yogurt, but hey birthdays only happen once a year, right?!?!?!

That’s where I did myself in.

I put my mind set in the zone of “It’s for my birthday, I’ll bounce back on Monday”… SABOTAGED!!!!


It was a snowball effect from that point on.

I haven’t eaten like that in MONTHS!!

I knew I would pay the price on Monday when I weighed myself.

Boy, oh boy… did I pay!  4lb GAIN!!!!!

After a few tears were shed, I sucked it up and told myself, back to work.

I must end with this –

I enjoyed myself tremendously and knowingly sabotaged my own diet but this time it was for a good cause ;0).


Now…. I know I will NOT make this a habit, but if this has happened to you make sure you don’t make it a habit of your own.  I don’t need to explain to you the term “Yo-Yo Effect……”

Mrs. Melissa Rians

Getting all HUNG UP on Numbers


Weight loss battle Weeks 9 & 10. I am at a loss for words, and for the people that know me… that’s saying a lot.

I have embarked on this weight loss battle for almost 10 weeks now and I am not where I planned on being.

The last thing I posted was about “hitting the wall.”

Well, I have discovered that “the wall” is about 10 feet high and is made of solid brick!!!

I told myself when I reached week 8 that I would drop the last 8 pounds of my battle in 2 weeks flat.

Baby weight loss

Did I reach that goal… uhhh NO.  I only lost 1 pound in 2 weeks!!!!

I am at 137 pounds and seem to be stuck without progress, or is there progress?

The thing is, I have been too focused on the numbers and not my body itself.

I love to lift weights, I am a weight lifter.

Now, if you are envisioning a super ripped/buff chick well that’s NOT what I mean.

I had muscle tone and was strong, I loved my body.

I love lifting weights, doing squats, curling, and pressing it feels amazing.

I had completely stopped lifting after baby number 3.

I had been focusing just on my diet and not exercise.

But after hitting the wall, I picked up a bar and started squatting again.

In the past two weeks I feel amazing!!!

I feel stronger and my endurance is way up.

Weight Lifting Goddess

I can jog a solid mile and a half now without stopping (might seem like small potatoes to you but this is GREAT to me!)

This is where I hear my all-knowing hubby, Sgt. Nick Rians provides some infinite wisdom: “Just remember, a faster metabolism comes from more lean MUSCLE.”

So keeping that in mind, maybe I need to stop focusing on those numbers and focus on how I look and feel.

Maybe, just maybe I’m getting rid of some of that fat and building back some of that muscle?!

The point is, what works for me might not work for anybody else.

For me personally, I need to stop getting hung up on the numbers.

After all, it’s just a number.

I can get down to 120 lbs and look like a stick with lose skin, or be a solid 130 lbs and look amazing.

It’s all up to me, and it’s different for everyone.


If you get stuck like me, take a break and change things up.

Mrs. Melissa Rians

When you HIT that WALL

when you hit the wall

Okay, okay…. so I didn’t post last week I’m sure I could come up with some great excuse but I won’t even try.

The truth is, I hit “The Wall”.  Everyone probably knows exactly which “wall” I’m talking about.

The one that makes you feel like you have somehow failed, like you may never reach your goal weight.

It’s a terrible feeling and it truthfully made me want to give up.

The thing is, I know where my down fall was.

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Two days before Valentine’s Day me, my 4 year old, and my 10 year old each made our own special Valentine’s Day cake (we make some kind of baked goodie for every holiday, it’s our tradition).

The thing is I was the one who had to mix all the batters, and I don’t know a single person that loves cake batter more than me.

So, I ate my fair share of cake batter, AND frosting knowing that I had to weigh myself in 2 days.

When that Saturday rolled around I got up on that scale and was actually shocked that I hadn’t gained weight, but I hadn’t lost anything either.

I decided that I would recover this week and be back on track, no such luck.

I hopped back on the scale Saturday and STILL at the same weight.  I haven’t dropped anything in 2 weeks!!!!!

Now, having to live with Sgt. Nick Rians who is in amazing shape, makes me be even harder on myself.

So when he asked me why I didn’t write my last blog I was super embarrassed to give him my reason.

I sucked it up and was completely honest with why I skipped the last blog, he just stood there with a puzzled look on his face.

I immediately got really defensive and said “WHAT?!?!”  That’s when he put some perspective on the situation.

He says to me, “We’ll how much have you lost since Sammie was born?”  I told him 26lbs so far and I only have 8 more to go to reach my pre-pregnancy weight.

women, exercise, diet, goalsHe reminded me of how good I have done so far, and that I shouldn’t focus on hitting a wall but focus on how great I’ve done so far.

And with just that little bit of encouragement I felt 100% better and have a new goal… I’m giving myself 2 weeks to lose my last 8 lbs.

So if you have hit that wall, remind yourself of how good you have been doing and give yourself a pat on the back for all the hard work so far and DON’T give up!!!!

Mrs. Melissa Rians

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Getting close!!!!

Here I go again, another mental argument with myself about getting on the scale.

I’m standing in my birthday suit, on the cotton candy pink bathroom rug (ummm cotton candy) as my 5 month old daughter giggles delightfully in her bouncy chair.

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I briefly wonder if shes getting a kick out of what she did to my body.

Instantly I hear my 4 yr olds words in the back of my head,  “Mommy you still have a big tummy but its ok, you still look pretty”.

I take one deep breath then I step on that dreaded little scale.

I literally have my eyes closed, slowly I look down at my toes and Eureka…..I’m back in the 130’s!!!!

I hop up and down a few times, making my little lady giggle even louder, and I realize that I just let a scale determine my mood AGAIN!

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During this weight loss battle I’ve been determined not allow a scale to instantly swing my mood.

Needless to say, it hasn’t worked.

Why do I do this to myself?

What is the psychology behind it?

How can I change it?

The truth is I can’t change it, and I don’t really want to.

It’s what keeps me on track.

Being scared to step on that scale is what I think about when I want that cookie or ice cream.

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That and, I’m a little embarrassed to admit this but my wall paper on my phone is a picture of me in my bikini after my 2nd baby.

Now every time I look at my phone I am reminded what I am working so hard for.

And it’s been harder this time around.

Everyone around me likes to put their two cents in, “It’s harder this time because of your age” and “It’s harder this time because you don’t want it as bad” and the BEST one is “It’s different this time around because you are married and happy”.

I just politely smile and try to ignore the comments as I’m thinking to myself how I can’t wait until summertime so I can show off!

To sum this up… Woohoo I’m back in the 130’s!!!!!!

And a little fear of the scale just might help you to stay on track.

One last thing, strategically placed photos of what you want to look like helps a great deal :0)

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Mrs. Melissa Rians

Super Toilet Bowl Sunday

02/04/2014 1 comment


5 weeks into this baby weight burn off and I was concerned about Super Bowl Sunday.

I have been doing my weigh-ins on Saturday mornings which worked perfect for this weekend.

I am down only 1 pound this week which was a total bummer.

I just don’t get it sometimes,  I have been eating great, and exercising.

I do allow myself two cheat meals a week but still expect to lose more than a pound.

That was how I was feeling on Saturday….. then came Super Bowl Sunday.

I was so worried about pigging out too much and gaining back 3-4 pounds.


I was laying in bed right next to the amazing Sgt Nick Rians and little Sam and I felt it.

My stomach was upset and I had the worst headache ever.

Then in comes Suzy (the 4 yr old)  “mommy my tummy hurts”.

I suddenly realized that today was going to be a miserable day!

As we all know, when a man gets sick it’s like the world is coming to an end, but when a woman gets sick we still have to be mommy, wife, housekeeper, and cook.

After spending half the day in the bathroom myself, then the other half of the day getting vomited on by my 4yr old, I got to watch everyone else pig out on the food I prepared ( even though I was super sick) and I realized, “Wow I’m going to be down more than a pound after today!!!”

Profile of a young woman vomiting into a toilet bowl

Not the ideal way to lose weight, but it just shows you where my brain was.

So for all of you that blew your diet for the sake of a football game, it sure beats spending Super Bowl in the bathroom or getting thrown up on.

I hope the scale was good to you all yesterday.

Mrs. Melissa Rians

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Coming to an end…

The first month has come to an end, and I am one pound short of my goal.

Down 9lbs in one month makes me pretty happy.

I’m still kinda annoyed at the fact that I missed my goal weight by one tiny pound.

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On the brighter side of things I took my one month pictures and I like what I see so far.

It’s crazy how much of a difference 9lbs can make.

So, my ultimate goal is 30lbs in 3 months, by the end of march I WILL be back to my pre-pregnancy weight.

I took pictures of myself on day one of this whole baby weight melt off and plan on taking pictures of myself at the end of each month.

At the end of March I will take my final pictures and I will post all the pictures with my final blog ( even the hideous first pictures! )
After I took the first round of pictures of myself, I sat on my bed, held my breath then took a look.

I can say this much, if my 10 year old son wouldn’t have been in the room I probably would have sobbed uncontrollably for an hour.

Luckily for me my son is the nosey little booger he is and was breathing over my shoulder when I looked at the pictures.

He said, ” Mommy you don’t look bad, you are still pretty to me. ” At that moment everything inside me stopped weeping and I cowboy’d up!

Now a month later and I’m down 9lbs, I can almost button my size 2 jeans, and there is a noticeable difference in my month pictures.


If you are dieting and trying to get in better shape I would advise you to take pictures of the whole process, it really does help to see the difference.

Can’t wait till my month 2 pics!!!!

Mrs. Melissa Rians

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